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To my bestest of best friends, I love you.

I'm sorry... I won't be meeting you there.
I'm very sorry. I've already tried my best.
I'm extremely sorry.

This is the first time I've fought so hard for something I wanted.
But I realized not everything goes the way I had imagined.
I saw the results. I didn't want to believe it. I prayed that it was a mistake.
But I can't change reality.

I'm now angry... Angry at myself.
I won't yell at anyone. It's only me to blame. But in case I do, here I apologize first. Please forgive me.

At the very least, I've known a friend through the process. Thank you for being with me. Won't be joining whatever CCA with you. Shall be continuing the fetish though (:

I hope you will understand if I suddenly cry. Don't be shocked if I do.
I regret I did not perform well enough to get in. But I will never regret my decision to try.

Best wishes to Qian Yi. Good luck in your new school.

Although I really don't want to believe this, I have no choice. I can't just threaten the principal to let me in, right?

Also, sorry to disappoint Shahid, Charles and Wei Han. And I have no idea why I didn't type Hussain, Charlene and Wei Wei xD
Thank you so much for your support all the time.
Of course, not forgetting Angelique. Yes, Huai Tian loves Angelique a lot (:

I wanted to go there because of Math and Science, because most probably I cannot get in triple Science, but I want it so badly... But now my worst fear has come true.

Not bothering to wipe away my tears now. They don't seem to end.

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