7 days left to EL Paper. There's too little time left for humanities. I can't get into HCJC after all huh. I told myself not to regret what I've done. I'll just do my best. I doubt that I can become a doctor if I go to AJC though. I'm scared because I actually don't want to become an accountant. If I can't become a doctor, I'll be miserable all my life. What shall I do now...
Ok so yesterday I went to bai nian at godparents' house. Godma asked me in front of like 6 people that I don't know whether I still want Lego. And apparently recently there was an episode where Mama introduced the Godsis as her goddaughter to someone, and Godsis asked “为什么这么见外？” Then Mama asked me if I was willing to be called her 'daughter' as well. In my brain I was thinking "wtf?". I had never registered in my mind that there was such a big difference, especially since they had no biological daughters. Hello I call you Mama and Daddy, not Godma and Godpa. So maybe it was just me who thought that it's no big diff. But sometimes the diff becomes so painfully obvious. Then I said sure. Sometimes my brain gets stuck in the present. I can't find words to defend myself. Only after thinking about it for hours, or in the shower or in bed, then I find the words coming to me. Godsis is one of a kind la. Her actual surname is Chua but she says her surname is ...
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